These past 4 1/2 months of post-grad have been an absolute whirlwind of emotions for me. I hate to bring the pandemic up again, but truly, I never would have imagined I was going to have to graduate in the middle of one. I had felt kind of mentally prepared for the “unknown” that is post-grad, but in the middle of possibly the shittiest year in our current lifetime? It made me want to crawl in a corner and lay there for as long as I could.
Which, actually, I kind of did.
Finishing college was a huge accomplishment for me, and all I could think about doing after graduating was nothing. Literally. I wanted a break, so I allowed myself to have one. But the ever-present question of “What now?” was stuck in my head. While spending my days doing this nothing, it felt like everyone around me was doing something. And to have this “safety blanket” of a new school year ahead of you taken away was hard to deal with too, because it meant that I had full control over my own time and how I wanted to spend it, and it’s easy to trap yourself into thinking that you should be doing XYZ or ABC.
Eventually for me, I started my own job search. It’s a long and tedious process with little results—but 2 weeks ago I got a call back from a company, which funnily enough was one of the first companies I had looked at but hadn’t applied to until the week before. Now, tomorrow will officially be my first day with them. (Yay!)
With this first taste of post-grad life, the one thing that I learned and want to share with you all is that with whatever situation you find yourself in, it’s so important to take a moment each day to be kind to yourself. Especially now. It’s easy to trap yourself into thinking that you should be doing XYZ or ABC, to feel that you’re not accomplishing as much; but the reality is that we’re in the middle of a really fucking difficult time right now that has thrown us all into our own rollercoasters of different situations and emotions. So whenever you feel like you’re slipping out, rest. Take the time to put yourself back into a healthy mental space, don’t be afraid to lean onto the people you trust, and know that all you can really do each day is the best that you can—whatever that means to you.
Trust the process. Trust that things will work out the way that they are meant to; that sometimes things will literally make zero sense now, but will only serve to put you in a better place and make you a better person in the future.
At this point in writing this out I have no idea if I’m making any sense lmao but I just wanted to get this particular stream of consciousness out that has been brewing in my head these past weeks. Also, it’s officially November (wtf), and the fact that it starts on a Sunday brought a spark of joy in me that I wanted to celebrate with a blog post.
I hope you all have been taking care of yourselves and wearing your masks! If you live in the U.S., the election is this Tuesday, so PLEASE go out and vote! Or, if you filled in a ballot that was mailed to you, return it to a polling place in person if you haven’t already so it can be counted on time! You can go HERE to find your nearest voting/drop-off location.
As always, thank you for reading and see you in the next one. ❤️
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